I cannot believe that in 3 months’ time, I will be a mum of 2.
The idea is still somewhat terrifying to be honest!
I have no idea how (or indeed if) I will cope.
One thing is for certain: I’ll have twice as much of everything to fit into my day! Double meal times, double nappies, double playtime, double bath time, double laundry. I wonder if I’ll get double the sleep too? NO?
With Sam, I breast fed him for 3 weeks, then expressed and combo fed for 7 weeks, before switching to formula feeding. I was miserable the entire time I was breast feeding. It hurt, I was spending almost all of my time feeding or expressing, sleep did not happen – at all.
I felt like I was on the verge of post natal depression when I bit the bullet & switched to formula feeding instead. It upset me greatly and I felt like a big fat failure. Within a few days of making the change, Sam was like a different baby. He was content for the first time in his short life, he slept for more than 30 minutes at a time, and this made me happier too.
I intend to breast feed again this time around, but I am not going to be so hard on myself if it doesn’t work out. I feel more confident this time as I have seen for myself that babies can be just as happy (if not more so in some cases) when they are having formula. I don’t feel like I lost any of my bond with Sam by switching to formula, in fact – it strengthened it if anything as I finally got to do more than just feed him, and hubby got to feed Sam too – which I know he enjoyed.
There isn’t really a point to this post, I just wanted to get it written down somewhere, so that if and when I am struggling with breast feeding, I can remind myself of these thoughts. Breast Milk may well be best for babies, but formula feeding does not equal failure!